symptoms of [mal]function

can you see the signs?

Monday, September 11, 2006

(In)dependence?

Here’s something to share with you,

"Notice how God will wither up every other spring you have. He will wither up your natural virtues, He will break up your confidence in your natural powers, He will wither up your confidence in brain and spirit and body, until you learn by practical experience that you have no right to draw your life from any other source other than the tremendous reservoir of the resurrection life of Jesus Christ. Thank God if you are going through a drying-experience!

Our Lord never patches up our natural virtues, He replaces the whole man from within, until the new man is shown in the new manners. God does not give new manners; we make our own, but we have to make them out of the new life (Ephesians 4:22-32). Every detail of our life is to be absolutely under the control of the new disposition which God planted in us by means of identification with Jesus Christ, and we shall no longer be allowed to utter “can’t.” There is no such word as “can’t” in a Christian’s vocabulary if he is rightly related to God; there is only one word and that is “I can.”
~oswald sanders;biblical psychology-chapter IV~

I used to think that freedom was being able to exercise independence, to have my say…free will!
What kind of freedom is this, that requires recognition of my human-ness.
How did dependence turn out to be the key to freedom?
It's hard, learning to let go.

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Other random stuff:

Everyone had a blog these days!! (Exaggeration of course)

But really, disputes aside-blogs are a wonderful way of catching up with your friends’ lives….and the cute guy, whom you are too afraid to go up to and say ‘Hi’ . :D

Am also not going to surf the net at all this week-contemplated an entire fast from the computer..but I have emails to send-lah. So compromised and settled for no net surfing. Must wean myself from the habit of reading too much online. It’s really time-consuming, not to mention anti-social.

Not at work today, due to an infected pharynx and larynx-otherwise known as a sore throat. My sore throats always very the drama-wan. Have to speak in whispers/low sexy voice/ not at all.

Typing this post out on my laptop :P
Whee!! New toy! New toy!!
*big goofy grin*
It's not a Macbook, but still...am happyhappyhappy.

A tad afraid that I’m going to accidentally do something wrong and kill it tho'.