shrink

I found out today that a pastor I got to know through camp knows a friend of a friend of mine..who lives in another country.
Did the world shrink without me noticing?

Somewhere between last year and now I lost touch with people who I thought had ever meant anything to me. Disturbing thing is- it’s ok with me.I have a continual emotional detachment from people and things which is growing increasingly frequent.

It feels like I'm still waiting (for what?!) and everyone's already gone on.
I’d like to blame it on the superficiality of those relationships, but then again,life is superficial.
How do you tell which relationships are going to be one of those which sees you to the end and which ones are those which just melt away like dew.

People who seem aggravating then, are now the same ones who uphold me, spur me on and yes..still get on my nerves..
They say that you are the sum of your experiences…but I find it emotionally and physically draining to put effort into relationships. It bothers me that something so unsubstantial can be such an important part in life.

~unrelated stuff~

Been reading "The Little Prince" byAntoine de Saint Exupery
It's a good book, they say it's about discovering love...but somehow or another I think it's depressing..it's a story about someone who's going to commit suicide-heh or maybe I'm just hopelessly unromantic :P